Pressure is piling up

I guess many would think that being a leader would be awesome but I can tell you it is not. Unless you want to be one which everyone hates, then it's should be piece of cake but if you want to perform well, it's a hell of a job.

The previous guy has left a big mess and I'm trying to mend it. Then there's also personnel issues. My staff was suppose to arrive on Tuesday 2 weeks ago. When is about time she should land, I tried to call her but couldn't get her. Called the airport to confirm the arrival of the plane and it arrived.

Went to MAS to check whether my colleague has landed and they told me she changed her flight. They told me because I'm a frequent customer, or else they wouldn't bother. When I called her up she said "Oh, I forgot that part (calling to inform).

I told her, if you want to spend a few days more in Malaysia, let me know so that I can arrange our task accordingly. I was flying off on Saturday (2 weeks ago) and she'll be arriving only on Friday. We had a very short handover only.

In my company, bosses get scolded, not the staff. So the sales KPI is all on my shoulder and it's not a good feeling when big bosses keeps questioning me about my numbers. Like I said a million times, will see how long I can last here.